Friday, October 23

Paging Prince Charming

So this past week while I've been home with the swine influenza, I've been diligently watching "The Office," a comedy that so many people I know enjoy. Furthermore, a number of girls that I know love John Krasinski, who plays Jim Halpert on the show. Not being a watcher of the program, I would look at pictures or previews of Jim on "The Office" and think, "I don't see it [the girls love of John Krasinski]." All that has changed this week.

The character of Jim is so funny, charming, supportive, imaginative, and good. Through these attributes, I now see a male character that is worth adoring. I have joined the herds of females who adore Jim Halpert aka John Krasinski.

Sooooooooo, this of course, has gotten me thinking about Prince Charming. I am 30 years old and have wanted my whole life to be married and have kids. It was all about being a mother up until I first fell in love, which is when I first genuinely wanted to be a someone's wife. The tide completely changed through one class at college, when I suddenly wanted to wait on motherhood...being responsible for kids skeered the bejezzers out of me. I was about 23 at that time. All I wanted, probably up until a year ago, was to have a husband...I knew and wanted kids to follow but a few years afterwards. Within the last year, in light of my 30th birthday, I think kids have crept back into the main picture. I want kids in my life. I'm not afraid of raising kids but want it and embrace it. I still want a husband and marriage first and foremost but my body and heart occasionally aches for what isn't there.

Its not about status, achievement, planning a wedding, or having the American dream. I want a husband because I want that special relationship that comes with a husband: a support, a helper, a guide, a believer, an encourager, a listener, a teaser, a flirt, a lover, a giver, a friend, a joy, a joker, a strength, a partner. Sure, I know that Prince Charming may one day have a gut, be bald and may struggle with communication, but I'll take it....I'll take it all just to have it all.

I know the women's movement has campaigned about being complete without a man. I am complete with God in my life. He and I, we're a team. He leads, I follow. When I don't follow, He waits, encourages, convicts, challenges, teaches and loves me regardless. I will be happy serving Him wherever He wants me to be, even if I'm single the rest of my life. HOWEVER, my heart and my life was made for relationships. I have so many wonderful relationships in my life but feel an ache in regards to a husband and kids...a missing, sitting, anticipating ache. I keep trusting God...I keep clinging and walking with Him. He knows I'm waiting for Mr. Right, Jim Halpert, Mr. Darcy, Prince Charming or even an average John, Bob, or Tom. My aches, frustrations, and tears do not surprise Him or overwhelm Him. I am so thankful that I am free to come to Him whenever I need to revisit this area of my life. I know that the day He brings Prince Charming into my life that I'll say, "This is what I've been waiting for. This timing and this man is perfect for me. It couldn't have happened any other way." But until then, I don't mind continually asking the Lord if He could page Prince Charming for me and tell him (Prince Charming, not God, that is) to get a move on it!


My name is Cait said...

When you get your page be sure to pass on my details too!

Mindy said...

Cait, same goes to you. :) Thanks for reading.